Trials and Tribulations

"Hey, um, are you really buying that stuff?" asked my gay friend, T. I shrugged my shoulders trying to look non-chalant about my purchase of Whey Protein Breakfast Shake Powder. "I thought I'dgive it a try." I said, placing it in my basket. T gave me a look of pity. "You know, I don't think you're putting any real effort into this whole losing weight thing." he said as he placed B12 vitamins in the basket, "How much do you workout anymore?"
I counted on my fingers, 6 am to 8 am is two hours, then 2pm to 3 pm is one hour, and finally 5 pm to 7 pm, two more hours.
"Five hours on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Two hours on Tuesday and Thursday." I replied expecting him to be shocked with amazement.
"HOLY SH**!" he said, staring at me with wide eyes, "That is WAAAAYY too much exercising time! nobody exercises that much! That's just not healthy! Madonna doesn't even spend five hours a day on her body!" I looked at him, he was thin and frail. He's never been two pounds overweight, heck! He's probably UNDERweight! he'll never understand this struggle I'm going through. "You know, T, I'm really overweight. One hundred plus pounds overweight. I just want to lose this flab! How is that soo wrong?" I asked.
"Yeah, well, apparently you also want to kill yourself! You're never going to get skinny working out like that!" T and I were obviously at different ends of the Earth.
We walked up t the cash register, all the shiny and pretty wrappers on the candy bars caught my eye. "Why don't you eat one?" asked T, holding out a Twix. "I can't. I'll gain weight from those empty calories. I'll get some trail mix." I reached for the bag and placed it on the belt. When my items reached the cashier he grinned, "Looks like someone's on a diet." I chuckled "Actually.." I began to say before T cut me off, "She an exercise-aholic. She's like, anorexic." the cashier examined my physique, "I wouldn't say 'anorexic'. " Wow. Two people ragging on me at once! what am I? A-Rod? leave me alone! I wanted to scream at them really bad, "YOU'RE BOTH SCUM SUCKING WASTES OF SPACE!!" But istead I said "Okay, enough about me.." I paid for my things and headed to the car where my Mom was waiting. I got in and she looked through my bag. "Whey protein? what's that? It's not a diet pill, IS IT?"
"No, mom. It's just a shake powder. Like SlimFast."
My mom shook her head, "You girls are just alike! always obsessed with what your little bodies look like. Like anyone cares!"
I thought to myself, "Obviously, people care otherwise we wouldn't think Halle Berry was the sexiest woman, it'd be Kristie Alley."
My mom and I drove off in the opposite direction of T. Our ride was silent. Nothing said between each other. Finally she sighed.
"So, are you interested in getting a boyfriend soon?"
I rolled my eyes. I couldn't believe she says no one cares then she starts the 'If you just.." speech on me.
"A lot of guys would be interested in you, if you just lost a few more pounds."
I rolled my eyes again.
"And, I you just were a little more outgoing you'd meet a few more nice guys for potential suitors."
"I guess I need to lose some weight, then." I said, staring out the window.
"No, no, no! that's not at all what I'm saying!"
she said, pulling into our driveway, "You just need to be yourself!"
Really? well, this fat is not me, therefore, I'm not being myself. Every piece of her advice contradicts it's self.
I'm not that attractive to boys beyond a friend. I'm not worried about changing that status for a while. I am, however, worried about living long enough to be able to change that someday. I just need to do one thing right now.

I need to lose weight.


Sarah

Nevermind the bullocks, here's Punk Rock Aerobics

Wednesday, September 16, 2009- Woke up at 5:15 am and actually got out of bed at 5:38 am. Dressed and ready for workout at 6:00 am. Worked out. Loved the burn at the end of everything.

That's what my morning was like today. Extremely satisfying in the way of, nothing coming up in the way of things and getting everything done on time. I knew I liked PRA but now I know I LOVE Punk Rock Aerobics.

Really really awesome news!

I lost a pound! YAY!! From 237.8 lbs to 236.6 lbs. In only two days. This is some real motivation, y'all. Nothing like losing weight in such a short time. Maybe I can lose 3 pounds this week.

If I lose 5 pounds this month, and next month, and next month, AND the next month I'll be

216 lbs!! HOORAY!!! Just in time for New Years, too. It'll be faboo being able to buy a size smaller dress for all the celebrations.

I'm going to post my measurements at the end of this week. Along with some pictures and maybe a video.

Keep on keepin' on......

Sarah :O)

I've lost 3 lbs.!! Sh-yeah!

ATTENTION BLOG READERS:

I've lost 3 lbs. finally ending my plateau at 234.6! And all I had to do was cut out two glasses of soda a day. I can live with that! Esepecially with the results I've already seen. As you can see, I was more than confident to go out in my new swimming suit! Sorry about my other picture up there, it's just not cooperating with me right now.

I'm hoping to be down to 220 lbs. by the end of August. That's my new goal now, homies.

Hopefully, between my Burlesque, Belly dancing, and High power workouts I can do it. I'm really loving the soreness in my abdomen and inner thighs right now, I hope it never goes away.

I tried counting calories again this week, and I don't know why but I just can't do it. I end up trying to calculate the calories in a single Cheerio and/ or Corn Chex square, then I write it down so my counting ends up looking really weird.

Here's a little example:

1 cup of Oatmeal Squares with 1/2 cup milk ---- 240 cal.

8 oz. glass of Low carb- Low calorie Cranberry Juice ---- 80 cal.

1 single Grape Nut crumb --- 1/16th of a calorie

2 banana bites --- 5 cal.

Breakfast total : 326.16 calories

Yeah, so maybe I won't be doing that anymore. I also won't be trying to figure out the caloric intake of one bite of scrambled egg.

Anyhoo, I've set my new goal, and darn it! I'm gonna do it!!

Place yer bets now.

Sarah